Come back and stay.

Sorry for not posting too much. Even if I want to, I’ve been going through a very rough phase so I really can’t think of any good thing. If you don’t want to read something personal, you may skip this post. I don’t mind. I just needed to rant but I just realized that I don’t have that much courage to trust anyone right now. I’m too weak and easy to break. You see, my boyfriend and I broke up 8 months ago. I thought I already moved on. Yesterday, I accidentally typed the first letter of his name in the search box in facebook. I saw his picture. He’s with a new girl. My hands went cold and tears kept coming. I can’t think straight. I wanted to shout. My knees were shaking. Last December, he told me he still loves me but not as much as he did before. I asked him about his new girl, he told me he loves her. They were together since January. I got hurt. January was our anniversary too.

As much as I want to be happy for them, I can’t. I thought I’ve already forgotten this feeling. I don’t know why it’s still here. Why does it hurt so much? Why do I have to carry this pain? I wish I’m his girl. I wish I’m his girl again.. Where and how do I start moving on? I hope I have all the answers.

Posted 3 months ago 19 notes
  1. hubbubteens4 reblogged this from comebacktomewhenyoucan
  2. stormcloudsandcollidingstars said: I know it feels like crap right now. But it gets better, and one day you’ll understand why it didn’t work out with him, and you’ll be glad about it, because it gave you a chance with someone better. So smile when you’re ready, and love yourself <3
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  4. ze-zhennu reblogged this from comebacktomewhenyoucan and added:
    will do if i were in...situation. Prolly migrate somewhere else.
  5. emarie4 said: I know how you feel too. My most recent boyfriend promised me the world and then one day just decided he didn’t feel that way anymore. Two weeks later he had a new girl. It cut me to my core. It’s the worst feeling in the world knowing you’re not the one who moved on first,…
  6. beautynthebeastlovestory said: I just wanted to let you know that i know exactly how you feel. I wish i was still with my boyfriend too. I don’t know how to move on either :( but i hope we will both be ok one day :) smile cuz ur beautiful love <3
  7. prognosis said: xoxo sorry for your pain. Im currently hurting & I know nothing will make it better besides time. it hurts like hell. but Im so sorry. heartache is piercing. hopefully we’ll be alright in the end..
  8. marsbar said: it’s sounds crappy, but it really does take time. It took me over a year, closer to a year and a half to come to terms with losing my best friend and first love. Let yourself have enough time & new experiences, and you will move on.
  9. knivesandcoffee said: /hug
  10. fading-roses19 said: I know this feeling ALL TOO DAMN WELL. I know it’s really fucking hard and it hurts so damn bad… It will end, and in time you will feel better. I If you need ANYTHING, get a hold of me. I am sorry you’re going through this alone. /hug
  11. whispersunderthecovers said: Girl I feel your pain. I went through the same situation, but my relationship lasted for three years. I broke up with my boyfriend in April. I never really got over it. I accidentally ran into at the mall and I was with a friend. I have never cried so hard in my entire life….
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